some pix

more to come on thursday!!!Kesi and Breezy. kesi came by to see me and take some pix. he's such a doll. as you can see by the apron, B was workin hard!

1230am on sunday, and i had finally run out of steam. i openned the door and saw the lil spot of space and knew i could fit there. my supervisor decided that it was photo time, lol.

monday i went to a show called Welcome Home Hip Hop. im sure the video will be up soon if you wanna youtube. mine will be up today, or tomorrow. anyway, this is Life the Great. he;s cool. got a retro sound. thats my friend Work Sam in the back.

this chick had on the most tacky shit!!! im bout to send her pic to Durty Mo, lol. got on 12 different colors. anyway, thats the lead singer from yellow wolf. he was jammin. youtube them, theyre awesome.

in addition to calling that 80's reject onstage, he also stole my shades off my face!!! what? lmao, but you know i got them back. lets not play.

Shop and shine

At 1030, Kesi woke me up and told me to get dressed. He was headed to work, and I was headed shopping! Woo woo! We left the house at about 1120am and went to the chikfila in the center where he works. I could eat chicken sammiches for the rest of my life. Seriously. Btw we passed Naturally Fresh blvd which is where the salad dressing is made and chik's headquarters is located. What kind of name is that for a street? We were laughing cuz there are other, non food companies down there too. What if being "naturally fresh" isn't what their company needs?

After that he dropped me off at the Marshalls so I could go put some stuff on lay away. This time next month I'll be in a surplus, because its labor day weekend, and thus dragon con and major tips for the kid. So by then I'll been some cute fall clothes and I'll have money to buy them! And its the tax holiday? Yesss.

I didn't know it was the tax holiday until I was stuck behind 1 woman for 15 minutes in the line. Are you kidding? She had 3 layaways active which she was going through picking what stuff she didn't want anymore, then she had a cart FULL of shit. And there were 2 people waiting on her. I know they could see me burning a hole in this woman's weave. And her kids were that kind of playful that can be annoying when you are in a bad mood. Which I was after waiting behind this heffa trying to buy marshalls out. Quit it.

So finally I get to the counter. I remember I didn't get to try my shirts on. Damnit! Its all good though cuz I could return them if I don't like it. But I think I will. They're all silky and mature and I'm doing my grown and sexy. *brushes shoulder off. I walked out with a xoxo purse, a Perry Ellis shirt for Kesi, and some unmentionables....

---Hol' up. Sidebar. We's peoples right? When did bras go from emphasis on cute to emphasis on comfort? I mean, beige support situations are not me. Them wide straps... Ugh. I found ONE bra. Thank you Calvin. I only went up one size! Geez! That's why I have so many pairs of draws and my bras share a drawer with my undershirts. They can't win.---

So anyway, my search for yellow shoes were semi fruitful. I found a pair of baby phats but they cost too much and were too busy. Boo man. Then I found some that were a pale yellow (so as not to look like a Laker girl, for them haters) but the biggest they had were 7.5. I tried, and my heel said "girl if you don't stop..." yeah I wear a 8, 8.5. So I walked out of that situation empty handed.

So oh yeah I had a dentist appt. Apparently the rain didn't care, and neither did Marta. I was late and slightly wet. So I went in and got cleaned, and found out part of one of my fillings came out. And I had a cavity. So I gotta go back. Womp. And I started raining again. I didn't leave the dentist til 4. I got there at 215. Stop playing!

So I'm headed home now. Yay. Btw did you know that if you drink something it takes 2 hours for your saliva to get rid of the residual sugars? So if you, like me, drink all day (I still have my lemonade from breakfast in my Starbucks water bottle), sugar is tearing your teeth. I'm lucky I only came out with 1 cavity.
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Score one for the kid.

I have to brag. About how 2 mistakes, the need for yellow shoes, and sneaking out of work got me the deal of the moment.

So I went to work today after going out drinking with breezy and another coworker, Mary Lou (that's just what I call her). I wasn't hung over, just tired. I called dibs on an early cut cuz I really needed lavender yarn for a baby blanket I am making and my walmart is closed by the time I'm home. Breezy called second cut.

Aaanyway, 6PM comes along and its still slow. Breezy says "man we should just go to the mall, I gotta get me some shades." ok. I got time. So we leave and head down to Lenox, leaving our coworkers in what may have been the beginning of a rush (don't feel bad for them, they're some slackers and it wasn't that busy), and I'm all set to spend my lil $10 off coupon from express and find some yellow pumps to go with my white and purple dress (the one I got for my grandma's party that never happened).

We head to express and they have "$20 off when you try on these jeans!" bitch! You want me to use this coupon, huh? At this point it would have been a total of $40 off because of the type of coupon. I try them on. They fit. Nicely. But they're $88 total. Now I got questions to answer. But I know I can find jeans on the sale rack that fit just as nice... I do. Lovely lil x2s. And a cute lil top too! Yay! So I head to the counter (did I mention breezy is GONE! He has no desire to see me waffle over pairs of jeans. I'm sure Kesi doesn't either, but shoot, its in his contract) and I realize... This thing I printed off the net isn't the coupon! Its a copy of my email! I was in kinkos, in a rush, I never did this before! "its ok. Lots of people do that. I got ya." thank you! "your total is 12.98." wha? The shirt and jeans were 20 each, and with the coupon I was only supposed to save 20. Even with their lil 30% off I still would have had to pay more than this because... I mean its math and its boring but it should have been more than 13, for sure. This is express! "oh yeah I think I used the wrong coupon... Oh well, its done now." I like this guy.

Meanwhile B is spending 50 on a shirt in Macy's. He doesn't know. Just being around me makes everythink cost less.

I didn't find any yellow heels though....

*Pic taken with my camera phone.

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Le random

*apparently my ex, Ken, drunk texted a mutual friend of ours bitching her out because she suggested they watch "Juno" and he didn't like it. Whatever he texted her was so rude she wouldn't repeat it. This is a grown ass man ladies and gents, getting mad over a movie review.

*my thumb swells when its hot out. Why is that? Sometimes its my pinkie, and only on the left hand. It gets tight and itchy. Weird.

*the devil's gatorade strikes again. I had put it in my locker after it offended my shorts on Friday (btw the stain came out in the wash), and I decided last night I was thirsty. After getting home late last night I picked it up when I got out of the car, and it spilled all in/on my purse! What the?!? I didn't even bother to take it in the house. I just threw it in the trash. Bitch ass gatorade. I knew I shoulda got vitamin water.

*red ink heals really nastily. It looks like an open wound. Or like "the white meat," as we call it when you really skin yourself and you see the vessels under it? Either way its bad and wrong. Interestingly enough, my flower turned brown as it started healing and now its turning red again. Its like it wilted and died and then came back.

*when I went to Psycho Sisters to get my scarf and shades (see pic) there was a lil white girl, probably about 7, singing jeezy's "put on for my city." she knew all the words and was trying to put in some notes and whatnot! Then I started smiling at her and she got all shy. It was so funny. Imagine a lil girl singing "call me jeezy Hamilton, flying down campbellton..."

*speaking of lil girls, I love that commercial where the lil girl has a dairy queen fort and her dad gets played by her, then when he comes back the dairy queen is "closed." so funny!


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im posting this video for 3 reasons

1 lloyd's hair is delicious. If you didn't know, I have a *thing* for dudes with long hair.
2 this beat is ridic. PM dawn? Help me out here.
3 i needs the kaleidoscope glasses. :50 and 1:25

enjoy

lloyd featuring sonic the hedgehog- "all around the world"

it came!!!!

so id been thinking of getting a barack the vote tee for a LONG time. i think since my birthday. but i had decided that i'd wait until he secured the mon, despite the fact that the price would go up. THEN, kesi asked me what i wanted him to buy me with his stimulus check, and i couldnt resist. well....



it came yesterday!

is it a coincidence? is it a coincidence that the as i was trying it on, mr O was 5 and counting away from becoming the democratic nominee? id like to think it isnt. i spent the night text-yelling "5! 4! he's the nominee!" at everyone who would listen.



i think i have a problem.... lol im a bit obsessed. and lastly, an excerpt from the hilarious text comedy stylings of Joy and La:

La: i think im a bit overwhelmed. a black man is the presidential nominee. the most degraded, discounted, depressed and oppressed entity in this country. jesus christ.
me: woo hoo! go black man, its your birthday! im gonna use this as a jumping point every time i see a negro doing somthing stupid. "so a black man is the presidential nominee, and youre cheating on your girlfriend? hmmm."
LMFAO thats perfect!
a black man is the dem nominee, and you came at me with that wack line? bah.
LMFAO! a black man is the presidential nominee and u cant find weave that matches your real hair? no ma'am.

Ask and she shall receive.

*Rashan. Please look back to Feb when I wrote about camping, "Jameil doesn't like camping" or something like that, to read about the guy who's in love with mariah Carey. Suffice it to say that she's the only woman he's ever loved, if you know what I mean. Anyway, he changed his status to reflect his actions today. His profile pic is still Mimi though.

*apparently TI isn't on house arrest... Or something? Bah. Anyway he was giving away $100 an hour as part of a radio promotion/ community service. How do you calculate that though? Is it a whole weekend of service, or just when they tell you to call in? Btw I didn't call in. I had to work.

*I'm finally off! Yay! This was a hard won day off too man. I'm not gonna tell you how my feet hurt, I was on my period, and I had a little meltdown in the bread aisle at the Kroger. I'd just like to thank my baby for putting up with me while simultaneously putting me in my place.

*well, what can I say. I'm 11 days closer to Miami..

*still can't tell you about the work drama. But it got a tad juicier, and some faces got tightened, lol. But its all good for the Joy!

*kesi's mom got me a sundress! And it has yellow in it, so... Also blue, green, purple, and fuschia. Its black backgrounded, yet still summery. And can we point out that this was kinda out of nowhere? She's so nice! I'll take a "speech" anyday if they come with presents.

*the evil manager is still a dirty bitch... And no one will stand up for her

*got me some haagen dazs cookie dough icecream. Its good but it wasn't soft! Like, usually when I buy blue bell, and I first open it, its soft. But not the HD. I had to fight it... But it was still good, and it kinda kept me from eating too much...

*Look! I turned one post into 2! Lol. I'm still delirious from working, but I think I'll be better tomorrow. We're going to chili's! I have not been there in a... Possibly ever, really. I mean my bf/ BIL's/ brother works for their competitor, so why would I? But who wants to go eat what they cook all day? Not Kesi. So we're going to chili's to hang out with our friend dani. We haven't seen her in like 2 years, when she and another friend performed at this showcase. People used to think we were related in high school. I think its cuz we were the same shade of brown. You know how people are. So we expect to hear that tomorrow. Until then, holla!

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finally!!!

pictures!!!!

me at the hotel getting ready to leave. please note that the birthday girl pin made a return for the 08. not seen: skinny jeans and stilettos. the headband brought the color into the outfit.

2 of my friends. the chick, i havent seen her since graduation, except for her best friend's funeral almost a year ago. i almost cried that she and another one of my friends came... i dont know how we lost touch but we wont again. once again i cant hate on my boy wearing the shades... once i really got to drinking, i put mine on too.

from left to right, thats grand mariner (2), a lemon drop, and a pom margarita. i got the glow face, which is what happens when i drink (check the above link for proof of that). that, and i lose control of my facial expressions. but other than that, and my lack of ability to pronounciate, i felt great! the cherry stem i tied is behind the lemon wedge. shoulda took a pic of that.

yall. that food was soooooooo bangin! of course there was more on the platter, but i got halfway through before i was able to think straight enough to take pix. i want to go back!!! can you see the spicy goodness on the shrimps??? ugh! heaven. and they blanched and buttered the brocolli, which is how i like it. there's no need to cook most veggies. that just takes away flavor.

and indeed, i did take pix of me in my new express clothes.

this is the shirt and skirt, which i usually would not wear together because its too bland a combo for me. when i do wear them i'd pair the top with a grey or black bottoms, and the skirt? something rich, like a jeweltoned. or patterned. also i zoomed in on the pic bacause i was doing laundry, i wasnt wearing shoes, and i didnt have on lipgloss. it was a rush job, lol.

last but not least, lauren's valentine. for those that dont know, lauren is my valentine. this year i was gonna buy her a shirt that said "free la, bitches," but they wanted an arm and a leg for it. and a finger from the other arm's hand. and i said, "for that much, i can make it myself!" and thats what i did!!! im pretty crafty, you know? i took pics of it but my phone ate them when i was trying to email them to myself, so i only have one. and i think it says everything.

money does too make you happy! and kinda pissed too

we're going to vegas. during all star weekend. this is the most expensive undertaking in the history of life.

i was online every chance i got bargain hunting. i checked every hotel site- cant get a discount at my own hotel chain cuz they know they'll be booked up that weekend and will NOT give me a discount. i was on every airline site, on every priceline type thing... i talked to my friend's bf who said to try spirit airlines. $99-149 per flight. they're just at cracked out hours. we'd arrive at midnight. shit who cares! those are great prices. between the boy and i it comes up to about $500 round trip. i asked the boy if he could swing 2. "not really." blah. i told him to try. he knows how important this is.

we went to sleep and wake up the next day to his mom calling him. "where's joy?" she then chastises me for leaving my purse on the kitchen table. most things we kids do in that house is to avoid a lecture. the mantra is, "do you want a speech?" cuz she will rant for days.

but then something odd happens... she handed me some money. "I hear there's a party coming up. buy yourself something." que? THANKS A BUNCH! i dont yet know how much money this is but its going to the trip fund. later i look and its $150! oh my god! this is so going in the trip fund. but what about a dress? oh you know i did.

i was once again surfing and found this great houndstooth sweater dress from wetseal. just arrived by mail saturday. fits me so well! i'm gonna be a doll at the christmas party.

in addition to the ups, there's gotta be downs. our hot water was off for a bit and i got it turned back on. apparently i missed a whole month of billing and i owed them way too much. shit! i paid half. then the car started smoking and the boy overdrafted in his acct. we've gone a week carless. my brother's phone broke and its gonna cost 40 to fix. i need that man to get a job.

so no matter what i'm still in the hole. but i'm getting those plane tix at the end of the week. and i did get a hot dress...

retail therapy only works when you have money

so next weekend i was supposed to go to a white party but despite my nag- ahem- asking kesi to request the day off he didnt and he cant go. i was very disappointed because if you notice, everytime i mention going out he's not in those posts. we find it very hard to get the same days off. i still might go, but that's not the point of this entry. the point is i was let down.

today, my day off, i was supposed to get a turtle. i have a $20 petsmart card ready to go but, did you know turtles cost hundreds of dollars? i didnt. i've never had a pet of my own and i was really excited about it being something cool, not like everyone else's dog or cat. i dont have hundreds of dollars and so my sadness continues. i still might get a fish- a few tiny sharks- but once again, not the point.

so i decided to go shop. i also had a $10 target card i was ready to get rid of. but due to my sullenness i spent a half hour wandering around with an empty cart and no real need to buy anything. i had planned to use the card on tank decorations.

i could help one of the problems i was having. at lauren's wise advice, i texted kesi and told him how i was feeling that he didnt listen to me, and that it was part of a bigger problem that had to do with us never going out together. long story short he told me he was sorry and that he loved me, and despite the fact that i might still be spending a night of fun without him, i'm not so distracted by things i didnt say.

with that, i went on a search for work pants. i cant believe things cost more at target than at marshall's all i wanted was black pants. $30! i didnt find pants there, but i did buy my brother some school supplies and get hit on by a guy with a gray beard.

on to marshall's. found a cute skirt for just $3 and an electric blue v-cut sweater that was perfect but too big. i dont think they were supposed to be such a display in the shirt. i sadly put it back after hoping i could find it in my size. i also spied the cutest burgundy pumas, which were so devastatingly hot i took a picture of them. i'm hoping they'll be there when i come back.

i finally found some work pants at ross. stretchy, which is good and bad. they stretch right around my butt and leave nothing to be imagined. but they only cost $8...

after all that i forgot to get bus fare. luckily kesi works really close by.

march is: National Major Misconception Month!

so there have been many a post this month about people and how they are seen, whether they are light skinned or have natural hair. i must say that i too am misconcieved because of my outward appearance, and i feel its time to share, in the hopes that people will stop making stupid comments directed at yours and mine truly:

1: i am not one of those "concious" girls.
i got this one today in electronic music class. we were talking about The Game, who i think is generally wack, and when asked what kind of music i listen to i mentioned Talib Kweli and Mos Def, along with others who the guy i was talking to chose to ignore.

"so you one of them concious girls?"-he notices my andy warhol print scarf on my head (cuz i didnt wanna do my hair-more on that later)

"no, i just like good rappers. The Game is typical. and also wack."

ok people... just because i refuse to fall into the G-Unit trap, doesnt mean i am one of those "the black struggle" people. honestly, i'm struggling enough for me, i dont need to worry about the rest of us. stop trying to figure me out!!! if he had asked who my favorite musicians were, it would have been a long time before a rapper's name would have popped up. i prefer rock. but since i am african american, that never even registered to him. so maybe i am concious in the way that i am smarter than most people, but that has nothing to do with my musical preferences. kweli likes 50 cent. think about that.

2: i am not muslim.
i cannot recall the ammount of times people "a salam alakum"-ed me when i had a scarf on my head. once again, sometimes i dont wnna do my hair. i have about 5-6 scarves for just such an occasion. they are pretty, and serve their purpose. i have alot of hair, despite the fact that my fro is usually tightly curled. i dont know SHIT about islam, except what a few of my friends and my theologist mother has told me. i saw malcolm X once... i was little. anyone can cut up some fabric or go to the hair store and get a damn scarf. dont play yourself. (side note: women never assume i am muslim. is this some kind of pick up line?)

3: i have my hair natural because...
when i turned 15, it started falling out. not for any ethnic or religious reason. pure vanity. ironically, i was dating a caucasion when i first started growing my fro.

vanity is also the reason i color it. i think it looks better red than brown. why did i press it last week? vanity. like i said, it curls tight and i love it, but it takes me HOURS to do anything to it. i usually have to have a day off just to wash it. its versatile. i'd never get a perm again, or dreads, so stop asking!!!!!

4: i do care about my looks.
i just dont care what you think of them. not even my mother cant get me to not wear jeans and sneakers to church. i cant remember the last time i wore a dress. my philosophy on shirts is, "if youre gonna stare at my breasts, you should have something to read." i dont wear makeup because i'm already that pretty. i have great skin and i'd like to keep it that way. furthermore, i am SO VERY SHALLOW. its a sickness really.

5: i actually love pork.
i just dont eat it. when i was 15, i saw a show where a group of people taking care of baby pigs. they are so cute! adoreable! so i decided that when i got older i was gonna have a runt pig (like wilbur from charlotte's web). knowing pigs are smart, i decided to stop eating pork. ever once in a while i'd eat bacon, but i'd only regret it and it made me sick. turkey bacon tastes better too. once again, not a religious thing. also, i am not a vegetarian. i'm just a picky eater.

for those of you that know me, this was probably just a laugh. if you dont know me, maybe we could all stop making assumptions about people. take the time to learn about people. we're pretty interesting and dont fit any mold but our own.