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I love that John legend song. It perfectly describes my relationship with God. Sometimes I have so many questions.

I had a funny experience the first week of the year. It was during a conference full of college aged Christians. One of them said to me, "I'm a follower of Jesus and I would like to pray for you. Is that ok?" as a fellow follower of course it was. It really brightened my night-it was already midnight and I had to work til 3am. Another offered to pray for my legs so that I wouldn't be in pain after standing 10 hours 4 nights in a row.

How does it come so naturally? I don't have it like that. I grew up in church and as I said before my mom (and several of my aunts) are ministers. I have no shortage of people to go to. But I don't know. I'm in a position where I feel like I need to feel like God is not a friend-of-a-friend.

I have been feeling it lately. Pressure. Work, home, school... People say, have faith, but I can't help but worry. Kesi wrote me this note years ago that I still keep. Every time I find it, I put it somewhere else so I can find it again, just when I need it. "don't worry babe. He never gives you more than you can handle." I know its true. But I can't help feeling heavy.
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Amen. i mean, a-woman.

Shani-o asked if we believed the da vinci code was real. I, for one, havent seen the movie or read the book because i felt it was too hyped and with hype comes my deep disappointment, and the phrase, 'it wasnt all that.' but no matter how i deny mr. brown, i still see the personification of God the Son everywhere. And its crap.

In film class, a girl chose the passion as her 'classic movie'. (i chose eternal sunshine of the spotless mind) a muslim girl said that it wasnt right that one of the prophets be seen and played as a character. I disagreed then, but now i feel like she's right.

One day in sunday school, i asked what God looked like. I was told he looks like everyone; We are all made in his image. I still believe this to be true and really dont care what Jesus looked like. Though if you believe the bible, he sure didnt look like an italian.

Lets go back to the begining. To answer shani's question, of course not. To me the whole thing is based on whether you believe that da vinci's paintings of Jesus were accurate. And if i cant believe that he was well versed enough in the bible to know that jesus had curly hair, then i doubt he was well versed enough to come to the conclusion that jesus had a lady friend at the time of his death. This is not to say it isnt possible- there is a whole heapa years of his life missing from the bible, so maybe he did get married- i'm just saying that leo cant get me to that point until he explains to me why he made jesus, a carpenter's son, so skinny in all his paintings. So dan falls short there.

Good premise, but it kind of reiterates the heavy visual symbolism of catholicism.

Cant we get past God as a person and get to him as a part of us? Its part of why people see such negativity in being a christian. Maybe i should start a church.