Diet blues.

4 weeks and a day til my birthday. When will the cravings stop Jesus? I really want a bag of SCO Lays. And a sprite. But I haven't had either and that's good. And I know that eating it is not gonna feel as good as not eating it feels to my mind. Knowing that I could go 6 weeks without potatoes if I wanted. I had twizzlers but they're a 'low fat snack' and they don't fill you up at all. They just give you something to chew for 5 minutes. Sigh. And I've been eating granola bars from Starbucks. They're low fat and have nuts and fruit. Breezy said "you know you don't wanna eat that," but they're actually good. So there, booger.

On the down side, I haven't lost any weight. I'm at 139. 1lb I've lost. I've been smoothie-ing and salad-ing and I get 1lb? Bah. I need to exercize, I'm sure, but I hurt my back last week trampolining. Like right at year base of my back. I hear I should have stretched first but I was so gung ho that I just went to it. I've learned my lesson so don't lecture me, ok?

I just need encouragement, so do that. I'm looking forward to my birthday. I'll be 25! Woo! Still clueless as to what I'm gonna do on my birthday, maybe I'll do sumn on Valentine's. Shoot, most of my friends are single anyway. And who cares about that holiday? Its for teens and lil kids. Yeah I said it! Think about it: if you're in a relationship what does it matter if on Feb 14 he gives you candy and flowers? What is he doing on March 28, or October 6? Kesi shows that he loves me even when he's asleep, when he pulls me toward him like I'm his security blanket, lol. Or when he's awake and he pinches my cheeks until I smile, just so he can tell me they're the biggest he's seen. No candy can say more than that. If you only get it on "special" occasions, then I'm sorry for you. And I think you should come to my party because your boyfriend sucks.



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