Trynna find a way...

So I changed the name of my blog again. I think it should be a yearly thing, as I think I changed it this time last year. Anywho, its a song by Nelly Furtado, from her first album, and I love it and I think it refers to me right now. The lyrics that are more literal that is. So anyways, here are the lyrics. Feel closer to me in this way. I was trying to choose between the line I used in the header and, "angel on my left side, devil on my right, and they fight for my attention." but I'm not feeling duality right now, more, the struggle. So boom. Read the lyrics. I'm going to sleep.

"trynna find a way"

I left my heart in San Francisco with some club kids on a crowded street somewhere
The sky was red and he said, "would you like to come be a part of my North American Dream?"
I could try to chase life down, down the street and I'd find the separation of fact and fiction

I'm tryin' a find a way
I'm tryin' a find a right
And if I budge I just might
I'm tryin' a find a way
I'm tryin' a find a right
And if I budge I just might

I left my conscience somewhere with my rythym
I heard about it from the mouth of a man
He was hopping some trains and combing the land
Looking for a lover (kiss) planted in the east
Trying to run from the dreaded fist beast
And it lies, it lies
in the picket fence call
It was my own paradise with my own private corridor

I'm tryin' a find a way I'm tryin' a find a right
And if I budge I just might
I'm tryin' a find a way
I'm tryin' a find a right
And if I budge I just might

So I'm dancing to a new beat and it came to me in bed
My veins became a strain of light that I let to flow instead
And a wish came to me like Peter Pan at my window and said
Evolve your destiny child and you'll never walk alone-no
You'll never walk alone, but
Travel to the land of surrender till' you can't cry no more
Till you can't, till you can't
And you'll never walk alone

all this inspiration is passing me by/all I can do is chill when I really wanna fly/and this pollution do nothing but dirty up my mind/faster than forever in the blink of an eye/to see past my lethargy is hard I feign/the beauty of my youth is gone but the chemicals remain

I'm tryin' a find a way
I'm tryin' a find a right
And if I budge I just might
I'm tryin' a find a way
I'm tryin' a find a right
And if I budge I just might

I travel to this land of surrender but I see it's all over me, over and over again...and I try and I try and I try...an angel on my left side and a devil on my right..and they fight and they fight and they fight..they're fighting, they're fighting, they're fighting for my attention...hello? You have my attention...Do I have your attention...Can I have your attention please?...please, you've made such such an impression on me
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