my buddy and me!!!

shani-o said...
Hey Joy... I've really been enjoying your writing... it's similar to Lauren's, but quite a bit less depressing.Take care...


so, lala and i had our first friendaversary this year, after 9 (or to hear her tell it 10) years of friendship. i told her this was proof of the kind of unconventional relationship we have.

it all started when we were 12. she and i were both new to this school where people would soon weave in and out of our futures. whether it be our math teacher or fellow students or stupid boys, they came and went. we went and came.

long story short, someone told her i said she was a whore. i would never say that about a person who i had just met. i'm from ct, for god sakes. i have a higher sensibility than that. ;) so we werent friends at first, but we had mutual friends. that brought us closer and while other best friends came and went- holly, nyshia, the other lauren, brandi, symone....the list goes on people- she and i were always there.

we listened to each other, read each others diaries, read each other's poetry...listened to the same music, kissed the same boys- which i must say did niether of us any good cuz those boys were ragedy. we envied the other's strength and aspired to be because the other was. neither of us had sisters and our mothers were (are?) nuts, so we were it.

9 years later, we are adults. we still affect each other and know that no matter who comes and goes we will be two old, crazy women together. any man that i love has to love her, and any man who loves her must be loved by me, and any variation of the sort. but who doesnt love her? she and kesi are constantly in this A-town bond that i cant ever get (hellyoutalkinbout....?).

and so i love her. i can see what shani was saying. we have had the same influences, but i dont think i am less depressing than lauren. i am generaly in denial. i force myself to see the smallest of bright sides where she is the realist. isnt that more depressing? who knows.

but if she's there wont there always be a bright side to see?