very quiet lives.

i used to think men and women could be friends. now, i dont know.

kesi was my friend. turns out he had a longstanding crush on me. was it just friendship or waiting?

i think the male friend is a rare case. we enlightened women think we are really on to something when we choose to have more male friends than the ones who 'keep up too much drama.' i dont know if we've got the right idea.

men keep up just as much shit. especially if you have a boyfriend already. you talk to them on the phone, hang out, laugh and joke, and if you dont have a secure boyfriend it can get really uncomfortable. is that his plan? does he want you to defend your friendship until the day you and your man inevitably break up and he's left to comfort you right into his bed? think ross, rachel and mark.

and what do we want? a person with no tricks up their sleeves. who wont steal our man. or stretch out that dress you let them borrow. who you can watch a game with and not have to explain what fielder's choice is. there seem to be plenty of women who agree with me, so lets us hang out and forget dudes.

as i said there are rare exceptions who maybe dont wanna do you- as much. a gay guy is always good. also one of your boyfriend's friends or a cousin... or a brother! or how about a friend's brother? a drag queen? what fun to have options.

i have two main male friends. one is a co worker who dates another coworker. his girlfriend is ALWAYS THERE. and looking at her, i'm clearly not his type. the other is more interested in a friend of mine and clearly i'm not his type either. i stick with them cuz they are slightly less interested in my ass than the average man.

i like having guy friends. but i have to remember what one of them said about their own gender: "we lead quiet lives of desperation."